A thank-you note

Thank you everybody. No, seriously, thank you everybody.

Neither A nor I can express how thankful we are for all of you, who supported us, thank you for being there for us. Mentally, physically, daily and always. Thank you for your open and caring hearts. Thank you for believing in us. Thank you for your faith in us. Thank you for your love for our love and thank you for thinking of us. Thank you, sincerely. All our friends, co-workers, families. You were always there for us, without us even asking and you always pushed us to go through with our plans. You never failed to believe in us and that’s why I want to thank all of you.

My parents always said, “Just do whatever you think is right.” And I always asked them, “How do I know what is right?” My dad would smile at me and tell me the story of why he and mom got married after only knowing each other for 3 months. See the reason was not, because he knew that this was the right thing to do. Nor did he know whether the two of them would work out together (although we do tend to believe, that when people get married that they just ‘know’ that they are right for each other). We think of a relationship with the best intentions and we want to believe, that it will work out one way or another. Whenever dad tells me this story he starts off by saying, “I didn’t know whether or not we were made for each other. I didn’t know what the future holds for us, nor did I know what would happen but let me tell you this, I married your mom once and if I were to go back in time, I would do it again and again.” – They’ve been happily married 27 years – still ongoing.

My grandma always says, “I never thought life would turn out as it did.” My grandma is the biggest soldier I have ever met. I love her with all my heart, for her strength and for her devotion. I love her not only because of her cooking but also for being fearless. My grandpa only has a few but powerful words to say about their marriage, “If anyone ever messed up it was me all along, your grandma didn’t mess up once, don’t get me wrong, she has her flaws but if anyone ever jeopardized this relationship it was me. Through all the years she was strong for me, for us and she always was there for me, although I didn’t always deserve it. But now it’s my time to be strong for her, for us. Now it’s my time to show her what she means to me and how much I loved and will always love her.” – They’ve been happily married 36 years – still ongoing.

When A first told me that he loved me, I was stunned and amazed, not only because it has only been about 2 weeks that we’ve known each other but also because I loved him back, with all my heart and if anything, my love grew for him, every day and always. If anyone ever did something wrong in our relationship, it was probably me due to mental break downs over the littlest things and my uber emotional feminine side. I’m definitely not saying that A is flawless, he is more of a drama queen that I could ever be and he gets easily over anxious and sometimes unreasonable but I guess that’s what makes us imperfect but perfect for each other.

Whenever A talks about his fellowship and us moving, he never fails to thank me. He would talk to random people, leading off with a sentence like, “Thanks to J, we are finally moving in together…” He always tells me, how much he appreciates me and how thankful he is for me sticking around and going through this with him. Truth to be told, I didn’t do anything. A was the one, who for months now has been applying for several jobs, who for months now slowly started packing his apartment, who for years has been telling me, that one day he will work somewhere in Europe. A has been the strong one. He will deny this but yes, he has been the awesome one. I love A with all my heart and most of the time I can’t believe how lucky I am to have him. I want to thank A for all the little things he has done for me like fixing my computer, dealing with my mental break down, when my iPod broke and I want to thank him even more for all the big ones, A coming to visit me in Austria and meeting my family, A pulling through and applying for so many jobs and finally starting a new position. I want to thank him for all the love he has for me every day and for all the jokes he tells me just to see me laugh. I want to thank him for waking up in the middle of the night, when I can’t sleep and looking after me. I want to thank him for feeding me meds, when I’m seriously sick and I want to thank him for his cooking (also thanks hun for all the hours I need to work out, to stay in shape…).

Thank you A, for being with me, for loving me with all your heart and for never failing me.